Where did you go? It seems as though I lost the world when you went away. I guess that’s because you were the only one to fill the hole – the only one to understand. I can’t believe how much has changed. Sometimes, I have to pretend it isn’t real. But it always comes rushing back. I miss you. It hurts so bad and I wish I could tell you about it, about everything, but you don’t hear me anymore. I wish I would have known, way back when, that our time together was limited. Now, I would give anything to go back to those days; those times on the railroad tracks, when nothing else mattered. I see you every so often. You don’t smile anymore. I think that maybe that is why it is so hard for me. You say that you are happy. I hope you’re as happy as you are pretending. We are different people now. And I know that those changes have taken us too far; this time apart has taken to different worlds. When I lost you, not only did I lose my best friend, I lost my sister. Nobody has ever been able to come close to you. I miss you, and I am forever sorry. I love you. I hope you remember that.
Love always, me.

P.s – Congratulations on getting married and having your first child. He is beautiful.