• !!!!

    by  • February 14, 2011 • Grief, Hatred, Heartbreak • 3 Comments

    Jan 19 “I hate”
    I hate what you did to me.
    I hate that you kept it from me for so long.
    I hate that you talked to him every single day about it, and not a word about it to me.
    I hate that it happened.
    I hate the WAY it happened.
    I hate the that I thought about it all day long,
    and when we finally got down to talking, it happened the complete opposite of how I thought it would.
    I hate that you ran after me.
    I hate that it was your decision.
    I hate that you looked at me as if YOU were the victim.
    I hate that you cried.
    I hate that I cried.
    I hate that it had to end.
    Especially like that.

    Feb 12
    I hate what I have heard.
    I hate the way I heard it.
    I hate the way I feel.
    I hate the way we quickly walk by each other, eyes down to the floor, as if we are ashamed.
    (are you ashamed?)
    I hate the way he smiles.
    I hate that I’ve heard he had a lot to do with this.
    (of course he would, he has to be in control.)
    I hate how happy and okay you look.
    Without little old me..

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    3 Responses to !!!!

    1. Rose
      February 14, 2011 at 7:08 pm

      I don’t know the situation, I don’t know you, or any of the people you’re addressing, and I certainly don’t know if you still feel this way.

      But I know the EXACT feeling.
      And I hate it.


    2. !!!!
      February 20, 2011 at 2:45 pm

      i still feel that way, its gotten worse.


    3. Anya
      March 14, 2011 at 8:59 pm

      Wow. im speechless. I know this exact feeling and this letter took me back to that moment. The sting, the anger, the hurt. I made it past that…with a lot of time. But Dear God do i know how that feels, maybe even worse. You can do it!



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