I am a fool. You were right, I can’t be with you because of her. She has ruined relationships for me. You are amazing, beautiful, awesome, perfect, smart, funny, and everything i want in someone. But every time you get a little closer, I end up pushing you away. I can’t describe the way i feel when I’m with you. I wanted to tell you that I love you the other night when we had that perfect date to dinner and a movie but as soon as those words come out of my mouth I will be so vulnerable and I am just all locked up right now. So since I can’t tell you I will tell everyone else, I love you J. And I am so sorry I ruined us…