• Hey you

    by  • February 9, 2011 • Betrayal, Friends, Grief, Heartbreak, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Trust, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    Hey there. You’ll never see this, nor ever know it was intended for you. But I’d like you to know you fucked me over. I wasted years on you and you never gave me anything back. You led me on. You can’t deny it, it definitely happened. I know you want things to go back to normal, but it’s hard after all that’s happened. I thought I meant something to you, but you were just lonely so you used me to ease your boredom. While those three days and endless texts probably meant nothing to you, they meant everything to me. I thought I had finally found someone that actually cared about me for the first time ever. I never trust people or open myself to them, but I did to you. And now I can’t do it with anyone else again. I cannot afford to make myself vulnerable and suffer that again. You ruined me. And you don’t even know it. I never thought you were capable of something so cruel, you were my best friend, but like everyone else, you let me down. I’ve been fucked up my whole life, hoping something would come along and change it. You were the only thing that never failed to make me smile in my whole life. Now, you just make me cry. You’re a reminder of what I have never and will never have. I just want something real, but I’m unable to accept it if it ever comes along. I was so good to you, too. And I know I would’ve been good for you, as you would’ve been good for me. Everyone agreed. I helped you out through your rough times, and was there to comfort you, but you used me. Worst of all, I still miss you endlessly.

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