I want to tell you that I love you. So, so much. I want to tell you that I’m sorry. I just want to make you happy. But I can’t understand what you want from me.
I know that sometimes, I’m wrong. I get it, I have a lot to work on. I lie and I get upset and I’m a bit of a wreck and I can’t express myself well and I say and do things that hurt you, more than I could ever understand.
But you want me to be perfect. And I can’t be that. I love you. I accept you. You expect me to be completely devoted to you, while you love someone else. You say you want to work on our relationship, but how can you say that when all you do is find fault with me? When you constantly tear me to pieces and love me and her the same way. No matter how much I change for you, would you change that for me?
I want someone who can love me, and only me. I want to be someone’s whole world, not just one of their options. And if that’s too much to ask, then let me go. We can’t work this out, if you aren’t willing to make a choice.
Please, I deserve that much. And I love you enough to respect your decision, but dammit, you need to make one.