• I fucked up

    by  • February 3, 2011 • Family Stuff, Gratitude, Grief, Love - Pure and Simple, Regret, Sorry • 1 Comment

    I finally escaped.I was finally done with the bullshit. I went to college and thought that would solve all my problems with you all.

    It didn’t.

    It made me understand.

    For 18 years i was blinded by my own selfishness, and thought my family was full of shit because of their problems. Now i know.

    It was my fault all along.

    I caused it. I created the hell our home was. I blamed it all on you, when it was all me. I fucked up.

    And now that I’m gone, you’re all happy. And i really am thankful for that. I’m glad my family is now functional, happy and loving. Even if i’m not in that picture.

    all i can ever say is that I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being a such an awful sister and daughter for 18 years. I chose not to see my affect on you. I chose to live in my own little world, and ignore you. But I can promise you one thing.

    Those 18 years are done, and I can finally see. And i will never be blind again.

    One Response to I fucked up

    1. anothergirl
      May 23, 2011 at 9:14 pm

      good for you to realize this. and don’t ever forget this feelings. it takes a lot to say you’re sorry and I’m proud of you now that you did.

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