I finally escaped.I was finally done with the bullshit. I went to college and thought that would solve all my problems with you all.
It made me understand.
For 18 years i was blinded by my own selfishness, and thought my family was full of shit because of their problems. Now i know.
It was my fault all along.
I caused it. I created the hell our home was. I blamed it all on you, when it was all me. I fucked up.
And now that I’m gone, you’re all happy. And i really am thankful for that. I’m glad my family is now functional, happy and loving. Even if i’m not in that picture.
all i can ever say is that I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being a such an awful sister and daughter for 18 years. I chose not to see my affect on you. I chose to live in my own little world, and ignore you. But I can promise you one thing.
Those 18 years are done, and I can finally see. And i will never be blind again.