For the first time, I thought that I had finally found someone who would love me and bring me everything that I have ever emotionally dreamed of, and I would return the same. You did bring that to me….but you are too afraid of losing me to risk being with me. Because that makes perfect sense. How do you expect me to live now? You are my best friend, who I have fallen in love with, and you don’t want to be with me. How can I deal with that? What am I supposed to do when you meet someone else? How can I handle that? What’s worse is that I had told you before that this has happened to me 2 other times before and still you burn me like this. I don’t know what to do. I am so scared that I am going to lose you, just like I lost them. The irony? That’s exactly why you won’t be with me. I wish you had a solution that could fix this. I hear from people all the time that I am this amazing catch and that I should have guys swarming all over me, but I dont. I have never been on a date, my last boyfriend was almost 6 years ago when I was only 16, and I can’t even get a guy to take a second look. You did. You noticed me. You made me feel special every fucking day….until today. Now I feel torn apart, with no way to put myself back together. What am I supposed to do?