Archive for January 31st, 2011

i miss you

H,

We used to be best friends. I told you everything. You were like a sister to me.

We stopped talking b/c you kept wanting to hang out with other people instead of me. I figured that if you wanted to be friends with me as much as them, you would try as hard. You didn’t.

But I still miss us. I miss the way we had fun and I miss the type of friendship we had. We could talk about anything and everything. We were so open and honest and I miss our friendship. But I don’t miss you…

I want to say hi, but then it will b like b4. you stringing me on and never actually hanging out. I don’t want that. I just want the old you back. My best friend. That friendship touched my heart and I thought we would be friends forever. Please comeback.

I think i’m going to message you and see how it goes. I just wanna see if too much has changed. I really hope not. I want you back as my best friend. I miss you.

~k


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Idiot in law

I love you but I cannot stand your mother. Seriously I would NEVER tell you how I truly felt about her (although you have no problem telling me how you feel about my mother). She is the MOST insecure human being on the planet. She can’t even wipe her own ass without your dad holding the damn paper. I know you grew up very differently from my strong minded family and you can’t handle all of our very strong opinions. But get over it for real. Your mom’s entitlement issues are driving me crazy. She has never worked a day in her life and has no clue about money issues. She is plain old stupid. Her IQ is lower than the Marianas Trench. I am tired of feeling sorry for her health problems. Every issue she has can be cured with two things. Exercise and Diet. But if I even MENTION so much as losing a few lbs I get my head chewed off. I can’t take it anymore! I am sorry honey I love you so much…but your mom is the reason why we have been engaged for 4 years and are not married yet.


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fuck…

I realize that I’m not going to love anything or anyone more than you, who I haven’t even touched.

I am fucked, and it’s all my fault.

I wish you’d ask me to take you back. But you won’t, and I don’t blame you for it.

I have made the worst mistake of my life.


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KBye

B,

I feel nothing in my heart again.

Because of all the times when you made me feel worthless and dumb. Because you caused me to feel that these instances were my fault. Because I gave myself to you and got nothing in return.

Mostly, I have a hollow heart because despite all that I went through with you, I have the nerve to think you would put any effort into fixing these problems!

Why would you? You never have before. What a fool I am. I even told you what you had to do to win me back. And what do you do? Post a picture on facebook with another girl with her making a kissy face *3*

Well.. now I’m sure in my decision. Spending any more time with you just would have destroyed me.. eventually. At this point I really don’t think you had any intention of loving me.

Some day soon I’ll outgrow my desire for your fragile and unbelievably conditional compassion. I’m not sure if you’ll ever outgrow destroying those you “love” but while all sincerity and love, I hope you do.

-M


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Poem for Heath

STILL TORN
Torn between two times in my life
My past and my future
Torn between a passionate love
and faded forest road signs
(Secret Mountain FR231)
Torn between the loss of a love
and the loss of a friendship …
greater than I’ll ever know
Torn between ripping up photos
or plastering your face wherever I go
Torn between the love
and the hate that I have for you
Torn between wishing you two the best
and hoping your time with her doesn’t last
Torn between your words of encouragement
and the abrasive words you swore were me
Torn between the life I imagine for us
and the ruin I see now before me
Torn ideals of LOVE and FRIENDSHIP (more…)


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Dear A,

I like you.

I’m pretty sure you’ve realized this by now, but if you haven’t, then now you know. I know I can be a little awkward at times but I really do enjoy hanging out with you. I always seem to have an awesome time. I hope one day we can be more than just great friends, but until then I’m happy to be your friend.


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those three words are said too much, they’re not enough.

in the weak hours of morning, i lay my head in everlasting fate, knowing i’ve become a better and happier person from meeting you.

thank you andrew for making me a better person.
love nicole


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the one you should have thought twice about screwing over.

After everything i’ve done for you, i can’t believe you could do this to me. I’ve always tried so hard and made up so many excuses for you. but i am done. forever. this is it. i mean it. You are absolutely ridiculous. You aren’t even worth a breath or a thought. I honestly can’t believe someone who seemed to be so good and so different could do this. I’ve never been anything but perfect to you. but you know what, i’m glad you said what you did. You finally ended this screwed up little thing. and i’d like to say you saved me from putting myself through any of this crap for any longer. you suck. i forgave you after everything you put me through the first time because i firmly believed it was the right thing to do, and i believed everything you told me. I was trying to be a better person. you are nothing but a cynical liar. i can see now that you just thoroughly enjoy being unhappy, negative, and just plain mean. i really hope you gained something good from all of this cause let me tell you, you lost something great. you don’t deserve me and i definitely didn’t deserve what you did to me. you screwed this blue eyed girl over once too many. and you don’t get another chance. ever again. goodbye. forever.

-the one you should have thought twice about before you did what you did.


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“Friend”

What do you want me to say to you anymore?

You come to me with this great news of a girl that you have fallen in love with and is perfect; that you met in a chat room. You want my honesty but everything I’ve ever said before still holds true; you jump into things way too fast. You want me to reassure you that you are doing the right thing, but I can’t do that, and I won’t do that. Don’t tell me to be a LITTLE optimistic; I’m honest.

And there you are; criticizing me again, and for what? There is nothing wrong with being in love with a boy that I’m not dating and there is nothing wrong with having a best friend that is a little overweight. Just because you don’t believe that these two people are good influences doesn’t mean you’re right. Being overweight doesn’t happen just by hanging out with people like that; so keep your rude and snippy comments to yourself. I will maintain my 110 lb, 5’8” status because I do live a healthy lifestyle and I do take care of myself.

Don’t call me your “security net” or “crutch.”

Stop asking me to pay for dinner; Just stop being completely rude and selfish.

Just Stop.


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I love you too…

At the beginning of the year you posted a video on my facebook wall, and it was a short clip of you whispering “I love you.” I sent the link in a message to myself so I can save that video forever. Because you hardly ever put the “I” in front of “love you.” and sometimes I go back to my inbox and watch it a couple of times.

and I just wanted to say…I love you too.


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