Things are changing. I’m just accepting that this isn’t my time to fall in love. I just give up on it. I’m tired. Mostly of being disappointed. So this is me just being done. I don’t have much hope it’s going to happen either. I would like it to, in the back of my mind…but I can’t picture it.
I can’t picture getting married, and being with someone forever. I picture having kids, but just adopting and I see it as being all me. No one else is ever in that picture.
So right now I am just going to focus on college, deciding a major, finding a job, getting in shape, and focusing more on God.
I’ll just be done with love for now, or the idea of it, or the hope of it. That sounds negative, but I just need to accept it, because I don’t want to be disappointed anymore.