I miss you. I miss staying up late and talking to you. I miss telling you everything. I miss hearing about your life. I miss knowing that as much as you make fun of me you will always be there to support me. I miss understanding our friendship. I miss you needing me. I miss you wanting me. I miss laughing with you and having fun with you. I miss everything about you. I don’t understand how we changed, but we did, and now I feel like I am missing a part of me. Even though I knew this would happen, I was hoping it wouldn’t. I miss all the memories we made together. I miss loving you, and knowing that you loved me too. This is hard. Probably one of the hardest things I have ever gone through, and I miss not being able to talk to you about it. The hardest part is knowing that you don’t care, that you are over this, and we will never be the same again. In the back of my mind I always saw a future with us but now I know its never going to happen. I miss everything about you, but I will get over it. Like I always do. Happy and easy moving on.
You told me that nothing would change. You told me I was your number one girl, and recently you told me that you wouldn’t have done anything with me if you didn’t want to date me. Were you scared? Were you embarrassed? You knew I would do anything for you, and you took advantage of me. I knew at the time that you expected more out of me than you gave to me, but I was willing to let that go. I was willing to do everything for you, and expect nothing from you. But I was naïve. I was stupid. I gave you my heart and you turned it into ice. After being hurt for so long, you made me think that I could have a real relationship again, but I was left alone again. Is that what I am destined for? When is my chance to win, to have someone love me as much as I love him? I wish this was different. I wish I had the chance to be something more.