long distance

dear c,

The first time I met you, I thought you were the goofiest kid. Never in a million years did I think we’d end up together, but I’m glad we did. You showed me what it’s like to love, and be loved in return. Then you had to leave. We tried to make it work but couldn’t. Now we’re “just friends” and it kills me. I want so much to tell you that I still love you, but friends aren’t allowed to say those things. I miss biking to the beach with you at 2 in the morning and surfing until we’re exhausted. I miss you hugging me from behind and nibbling on my ear. I miss talking to you about nonsense and reminding you not to be so reckless. I miss hanging out with you all night then waking up to your smiling face before I went to class. I wish you were here; I miss you so. I wish you would get your life together so we could be too.

-e