i love you. no wait. it’s not that i love you. it’s that i don’t know what my life would be like without you. and i’m so afraid that i am going to lose you. i’m afraid of telling you how i feel. i dream of you holding me and of you telling me that you love me. maybe not tomorrow but eventually. that’d be nice. i’m not asking for forever. i am just asking for a chance. i know you think a relationship between us, “it’ll never work” but you never know until you try. and i know, ” you don’t want to risk our friendship” well you have to risk the best things to get even better things. i was willing to risk everything to tell you how i felt. my pride, my feelings, my heart. everything. and the least you could do is tell me how you feel. because i know you truly haven’t. but i’ll wait for you. not matter how long it takes. because this isn’t something normal this is different. and i know that because of the way it makes me feel when a text from you pops up on my phone. when i see you and you smile at me and when you hug me and i feel like everything is going to be okay in the world. just give me a chance? please? i’m begging you…pathetic.