• confession

    by  • November 18, 2010 • Confusion, Fear, Frustration, Grief, Jealousy, Letting Go, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    I know nothing’s perfect, but you make me unsure.
    You’ll never see this and that’s good, but a part of me wishes you will.

    1. I want you to take interest in what I do. I’m always asking you about your day, and trying to get you to tell me more than one word answers. Work with me here.

    2. I wish you would open up to me, it’s one of my biggest pet peeves. That night I told you almost everything wrong with me, made me very vulnerable. I wasn’t overreacting when I asked you to tell me one thing. You really did hurt my feelings, and you make me feel unimportant.

    3. Why is it that when I’m gone it seems like you don’t miss me, but when I’m with you, you take notice in me? I have feelings, and I don’t like feeling neglected by someone who says they love me. Sometimes you ignore me like my parents do, and it makes me really sad.

    4. I know so much about you and her, I’m not sure I can do this anymore. You make me scared, and she scares me. Yes I’m jealous, I can definitely admit that. But the fact that you talk all the time makes me sick to my stomach. You don’t understand how awful this makes me, and I think you really do, but you don’t want to give her up. I really think if you had to pick me or her, that you would pick her. I’m really scared of you cheating on me with her. It also makes me sick that she can be there for you when I can’t. Our relationship will probably fall apart soon, but I can’t be sad. Sometimes I think you both are meant to be, no matter how sick to my stomach it makes me feel.

    -hev

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