You probably think that I’m over you, but I’m not…

It still hurts.

And deep down, I hope that it hurts just as much for you – in fact, more.

Is that selfish? Yes.

Should I hope that? No. But if I’m being honest with myself, this is something that I truly hope that you feel.

Yes, I keep writing about it – but I cared so deeply for you… (and all you care about is your shoes >:( ). I cared so deeply for you, and if I’m honest with myself, it doesn’t seem that you cared back. My best friend was right – You were too good to be true. There had to have been a reason that I didn’t see any flaw in you, from however long I knew you – and that was shown to me by how quickly you wanted to be friends.

I’ll still look at your fb page every now and then… I think I’m going to delete you off of fb soon – because it hurts.

And it doesn’t seem as if it would matter to you much if I deleted you anyway… I already lost your number when I got my new phone, so…

I still remember when you told me that you loved me on the phone. …You lied to me.

Honestly, why didn’t you just tell me that I was too young for you? Why didn’t you just tell me that you didn’t actually think that things could work out?

Why didn’t you just tell me that you just wanted me to be with you because of your insecurities?

It would’ve saved me much pain.

I am angry with you.

I am hurting.

And I won’t tell you, because in the end, it won’t matter.

It won’t matter whether I block and delete you out of my life without an explaination or with one – Because it still won’t hurt as much for you…

I am sorry it’s like this…

Should we have crossed paths?…

Maybe I should’ve listened to my parents… I should’ve stayed away from you from when I was 15.

Signed,
Hopeless love.