I’m so sick of trying to please you. I’m so tired of letting everything go just to keep you from getting mad. I wish when you said you didn’t care or wouldn’t care if I was angry at you, you weren’t being serious. I hate how I would take a bullet for you yet you would never do the same.
We’ve been together for more than a year and you were the first to tell me you loved me in the relationship, but I have yet to see that love really shine through. You don’t prioritize me and you don’t even try to help me when I’m sad. You say its because I’m always sad, but maybe I wouldn’t be if you actually treated me like a person rather than an object. I hate that I love you so much. I hate that when we broke up, I had a perfect opportunity to move on and get away from you, but I fell right back to you when you were ready for me again.
I hate that you constantly need attention from other people, including other girls, and not including me. You are perfectly fine without me, and you never fail to point that out. I’m tired of you putting me down. I am so much better than you, but for some reason you feel like you tower over me. You’re not charming, you’re an asshole, and you’re mine.
I hate you so much sometimes, but I love you more. I’ve told you plenty of times that I would never marry you, just so you wouldn’t get scared or worried that we were getting too serious. But I know if we continued to be together and you asked me, I’d say yes in a heartbeat. but you’ll never change, you never have. I just hope you understand that I’m the only idiot that can put up with your shit, and you should stop taking me for granted. Because I’m an amazing woman with more strength than most and I could have a line of sweet and thoughtful guys outside my door if I ever choose to get rid of you. All you’ll have is a line of one-night stands. FUCK YOU 100x’s over. I can only pray that someday you’ll feel as lousy/taken for granted/hurt/useless/all of the above as I do. All I can do now is follow you around like a dog until I finally get the courage to tell you I’m done. I’m sorry I love you. I really am.