Surprised as I was by your kiss and affection the other night on the yacht, I really did savour that those moments we shared. Under the blanket of stars, listening to the gentle lap of the ocean on your beautiful vessel. I was thrilled, to have your strong arms hold me in an unexpected embrace to keep me warm, and close to you.
My emotional journey the past five months started with such pain and anger with an incredible struggle to forgive. And subsequently, as these have been washed away by divine grace, what’s left behind seems a quiet numbness. Some days I was almost sure that I had forgotten the pleasures of simple desire.
Of course you didn’t know all this when you pulled me to you closed that night. And I am not sure if I will see you again as soon as I would like. Or hope for. Yet I am incredibly thankful – you have provoked desire and longing in me again. I now know I am stronger than I realised. I am healed of my past experiences, and I am ready to live…and love passionately again.