I don’t know where to start. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I lied to you. I’m sorry I have been a bitch. I’m sorry you have gone through so much because of me.
I can’t change the fact that you are hundreds of miles away but if I could I would. I’d tell you all the truths you don’t know yet. I’d promise you I’d be who you need. I’d make sure you never had to hurt again.
Babe you are my guardian angel and you have been here in spirit with me for the past two years now. The thought of someday being with you is what has gotten me through nights I thought might be my last.
The night I thought I was going to lose you was the most frightening night of my life. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t do anything except pace back and forth and wait for you to call. And when you didn’t I was so scared. I was so worried. I never got to tell you that I loved you. Because I didn’t know until that night.
You are my love and I can’t live without you. Please understand that the only reason I hide things from you is because I love you.