I still get sucked into the voice in my head, goading me to look at your ex’s online, out of; curiosity/boredom/jealousy? I don’t know. I just know I probably really shouldn’t do it, but even after all this time I sometimes wonder, and worry.

What if you are still talking to them? (you aren’t)
What if they have something better than me? (I hope not)
Why can I still mistrust, after all this time, with you doing nothing to lose my trust, AT ALL.

Is it MY past relationships, indirectly haunting me?

I honestly don’t know, I KNOW you love me, and I love you. I know it has been years, it’s over and done with, the past is there but our future is bigger than it.

Gosh, I know everything that would come out of your mouth right now if you were here with me, but I just…

I’m sorry. for still being this way, and for probably, always going to be this way, guhh. D:

Please, never let me forget how important I am to you, or this feeling may engulf me.