I still don’t know what it was about you that intrigued me so much as to abandon the life I had built with the man that loved me and face the world cold and alone, but for some unknown reason you did.
Every day I am faced with the decision I made. It hurts me. It pains me. Anguish’s me, irritates me. You told me you knew I was feeling guilt, that I should tell you because I have nothing else to lose. Well this it. The painful guilt I feel is that I left the man I loved for you.
You’re mentally incapable of simplicity, you are terrible at money management and you’re very unattractive. I mean that sincerely. I never found you attractive. That doesn’t mean we couldn’t have crazy sex and that doesn’t mean that I didn’t care about you at all. It just means that I have some issues I need to sort out, mainly the ones having to do with staying exclusive with the most unattractive guy I’ve ever been with. Your teeth are gross, misplaced and you have a lisp and I can’t believe that I stuck around for that.
I can’t believe that I left the place of my dreams with the man of my dreams, living the life I only dreamt of, FOR YOU. That is the guilt that I am dealing with. That is why we can not be friends. That is why I do not want to keep contact with you. Please leave me alone, please do not call/text me, please do not leave me lengthy messages on facebook, please do not I.M. me. Please just get away and stay as far away as possible.
Never could I, would I ever love you or be with you,
Out of your league.