• I am a thousand miles from my heart

    by  • October 4, 2010 • Family Stuff, Friends, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Thinking of you, Yearning, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    I want to go home. I’m tired of this place, tired of this town. I’m tired of these faces that are familiar yet foreign to me.

    I need my mom. I miss my family, even the crazy ones. I want to see my cousins’ babies grow up, and make up for all the family reunions I missed.

    I love my friends here, but I miss my friends at home more. I want a chance to pursue my high school what-if. I want make up for the times I put my foot in my mouth around him -which continues to be every time we talk.

    I left home because I thought I had found love. I wanted to get away, to find adventure, to find myself. I didn’t find love, and I found substandard versions of everything else I wanted.

    After my dad passed away, I realized they were right where I left them almost twelve years ago. There they remain, a thousand miles from me.

    I miss you so bad. Fuck, it hurts. Talking on the phone or computer is a cold consolation prize. I’m a hugger. I need affection. I need you.

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