• This isn’t any different…

    by  • October 1, 2010 • Letting Go, Lost Love, Love - Pure and Simple, Regret, Sorry, Yearning • 0 Comments

    EJ, TM, KS, and EM,

    I am truly sorry that this letter has come to this. But I have no choice. I am
    stuck in a place that is so familiar to me it is a second home. I am wondering
    if this is nothing more than a phase, or if these failures are the way things
    were, the way things are and the way things will be. I am in a darkness that
    makes no sense to me.

    I have picked up the pieces and put my life back together so much that I have
    begun to remember the picture this puzzle is supposed to make. The image is
    clear. I am someone who wants a stable relationship, but when he finds one, it
    can’t get off the ground. Nothing seems to last for me. I am stuck desiring
    until I hurt myself, which I do not want to do.

    I am worn out. I am no longer desiring relationships. I am simply hoping that
    they all understand without an explanation. I am getting tired of my life story.
    I want to move the fuck on. Your memories are holding me back.

    For the final time,

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