I spoke to you today…for the first time in about two months.
You still made me happy, you still made me smile.
I was still me around you. Obviously, I couldn’t say some mushy things to you because we are not dating anymore.
I still feel the need to tell you how much I really like you and how much I want us to be together and how much you make me happy and how much that hearty laugh of yours just makes my heart smile. But then again, what’s the point? You are miles and miles and miles away and what we had ended in a messy way.
We spoke for about 35 minutes. And I noticed changes in you, positive changes. You’ve started to build a relationship with God and tbh, I’m sooooo impressed! Extremely impressed. I always used to pray for God to touch you and make you know him. And guess what, He answered my prayers!
My friends think you are being fake and I’m being naive. But tbh, 85% of me believes you are being you, despite the fact that I know that you know how to really lie. lol.
I don’t get why I like you this much. I think it would hurt me sooo much to see you get married to a woman that’s not me. Part of me keeps hoping that you are the one that God has destined for me to be with forever.
You make me happy…you make me smile. I’m just really into you. It’s been more than a year since we broke up and I still think of you this way most times.
To be honest, I don’t know. I don’t know anything. Everything is just confusing.
But what I do know is, if it’s God’s will for us to be together, we will be together. It’s in His hands really. #LINS