• To the guy who broke me, thank you.

    by  • September 29, 2010 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up, Gratitude, Heartbreak, Letting Go, Lost Love • 1 Comment

    You broke my heart almost a year ago to the day.

    We were having relationship problems, really bad ones. You didn’t love me anymore, but I still loved you more than anything. No matter how bad you hated me. Whether you called me fat or not, cute or not. You hurt me more than ever. But indeed I still loved you.

    Nothing hurt me more than those final weeks when I knew it was coming to an end, but I didn’t know when. Nothing killed me more than when you called me and said “I think we should break up.” You were so cold to me. Like it didn’t phase you at all. You were even over it the next morning. I cried forever for you. And you didn’t shed one tear for me. That might be what hurt the most.

    But beside all the pain you put me through. I do have to thank you. You showed me what love isn’t and what to look out for. You showed me that I had to find the opposite of you in every way, shape, or form.

    Thanks to you I found the love of my life currently.

    Unlike you he takes me out to dinner and movies. He doesn’t say he’d be mad at me if I was mad if i found girls clothings in his car. He hugs me, kisses me and holds me. The opposite of you. He calls me pretty instead of fat, beautiful instead of chubby, everything the opposite of you.

    Because of you I learned how to play it safe. How to keep myself even more locked up. And for that, I don’t thank you. Now because of you its ruining my current relationship. I can’t show him the amount of niceness I showed you in fear of more rejection. I can’t love him like I loved you, because I don’t want to have a repeat, I want new things.

    But I still thank you, for the love of my life now. He said me from the depression you put me in.

    But most of all I want to thank you for forming my love for piano. You once told me I can’t finish anything and that I couldn’t learn the song I loved to hear. To prove you wrong I sat and I was learning and learning. You broke up with me in the working of this song. But I still continued and continued. And now I’m better at piano than I was. And I can do something. You formed my love for piano because when you broke me I had no one. I gave up everything for you, silly me. Now playing piano is the only thing that can make me feel better besides a snuggle from my love.

    So for all that, I thank you. Even though you killed me in more ways than one.

    Thank you for giving me my love today instead of being stuck with you.

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    One Response to To the guy who broke me, thank you.

    1. Madison
      October 5, 2010 at 2:19 pm

      That was beautiful and inspiring.

      “I had a boyfriend who told me I’d never succeed, never be nominated for a Grammy, never have a hit song and that he hoped I’d fail. I said to him, ‘Someday, when we’re not together, you won’t be able to order a cup of coffee at a f***ing deli without hearing or seeing me. “— Lady Gaga

      Isn’t it amazing how the people who hurt us inspire us to find ourselves?

      My ex-boyfriend told me I was brainwashed for not wanting to get a tattoo and told me to wear more make up to be sexy. He called me sexy instead of beautiful and that his eyes were prettier then mine. It’s the little things you know. He made it all about him.

      Today I still don’t have a tattoo, but I have an incredible internship and an amazing boyfriend who’s eyes are beautiful and he says the same of mine. He too hugs me, kisses me, holds me and takes me out on dates where the other one did not.

      I would take him and my life now instead of my past any day of the week. It’s good to see how we rise from the ashes and find ourselves.




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