• my painful heart

    by  • September 29, 2010 • * Safe for Work *, Grief, Heartbreak, Hope, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    I truly do not understand how you could just NOT love me.

    I realize this sounds very conceited however, I give you everything. EVERYTHING. I don’t even know how to give you more than I already have.

    You completely lied when you said you loved me. You cannot and will not love me. Just flat out WILL NOT be in love with me. And I’ve found this completely pathetic side of me that just will not get myself out of this relationship.

    I just want to be with you, sleep next to you, breathe you in until I can memorize every single iota of every single moment with you so that you’ll never actually leave me. You’ll always be this piece of my heart walking around playing the stupid guitar that’s more important to you than me.

    And until the next time you decide that you just can’t handle a girlfriend right now, I’ll keep memorizing every moment with you. Every snore, every minty morning kiss, every whiff of Irish Spring soap and Right Guard, every massage, every morning sunlight, everything.

    Because you’re my soulmate. Even if I’m not yours. It will always be my greatest regret that I couldn’t find a way to get you to love me.

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