For the past 6 years you have been my best freind. Somehwere along the line though, I fell in love with you. You broke my heart after you told me you didn’t feel the same way anymore, but we’ve both moved past that and are finally good friends again and I am so glad for that.
With all that said, I have no idea how to tell you that I’m still very in love with you. You live 2000 miles away and you still have a power over me that i can’t explain. I’ve tried and tried to forget you, but you’ve been such a big part of my life that it’s impossible to do.
I’m hopelessly in love with you, B. It scares the hell out of me. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do was say goodbye to you when I came home from visiting you. I literally felt my heart breaking in half. And then you told me you weren’t in love with me anymore. I was crushed, I hated you, but I still could not let go.
You know me better than anyone else, and I know you just as well. I know what you’re going to say next, without question. I know how you’re feeling and what you’re thinking. What I don’t know, is why you can’t love me.
I want to marry you like you asked me to the other day, and I want to move there and live with you like you wanted. I can’t imagine myself with anyone else. It kills me that you only want it to get off base and want it over in three years, though.
I love you.
And the answer is yes.
… but i can’t tell you that.