I can never send this because I know it would tear you apart.
I should have the courage to tell you because I know you would love me still but you’ve been so perfect, I can’t bring myself to tell you–I cheated on you.
It was nothing more than kissing but it happened. I was drunk and feeling lonely and you weren’t there and we were dancing and he likes me and he’s so cute. He leaned in, and I let him. I felt horrible immediately after and wanted to tell you right away, especially when I got a text from you 20 minutes later saying you missed me… but I couldn’t then, and I can’t now. I’m sorry. So, so sorry my sweetheart…
Just know that I still love you more than I could ever tell you, and that one kiss doesn’t mean I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with you, because I do more than anything.