• numb

    by  • September 24, 2010 • * Safe for Work *, Depression, Grief, Heartbreak, Lost Love • 0 Comments

    I have been wondering for so long when I will stop crying

    I prayed for the pain to go away

    I prayed for you to come back into my life and make everything okay again

    It’s beginning to hit me now that I don’t know if I will ever be able to stop crying completely

    Sure, it will hit me less, I will be able to hold it together for just a little longer during the day, but I don’t think I will ever really be able to stop crying completely

    I think I am just realizing that this is reality now, this isn’t a dream, this won’t go away

    The past few days I have just been hoping to feel numb, not happy, just numb enough to not have to feel the pain

    That’s what you get to do, you numb yourself from the pain, from life, you don’t have to deal with it like I do

    All this time I thought I was the smart one, you were making the bad decisions and throwing away your life, but you get to enjoy the numbness of not caring

    while here I am, stuck, feeling everything

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