• Maybe it’s Me

    by  • September 24, 2010 • * Safe for Work *, Friends, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 6 Comments

    Do you recall sitting together in your car, driving aimlessly around town with me beside you. You were driving. We were connected on deep levels. Sometimes we would stop and talk. Other times we would drive around. I asked if I could touch you…I wanted to get so close to you, and you said it was OK. And we kept talking. And I asked if you mind if I continued feeling your body, softly. You said it was OK. It was never overtly sexual, but it was as close as we could allow at the time. And it was hot…sensual. And I wanted to jump into your seat and keep moving further down that road…

    your mouth would get dry when you continued to talk. I know you were with me in the heat of the moment…made me laugh inside, and also got me so hot for you…

    All the while, we were constructing a trust, and confidence. We spoke of things which helped you emerge out of a depression. Maybe a few things we discussed brought light into your life. Maybe revelation. Maybe it was love, and friendship, which broke the bonds of hurt and darkness.

    But from the beginning, I have had a hard time keeping my distance. You know this…don’t you? You were better than me. I loved the depth of your soul. Beautiful to me. And you loved my soul too. But I had a harder time putting up gates and limits.

    And maybe, just maybe, this is why we are kept from the friendship which makes sense in your thinking now. Maybe it’s about my weakness (even though I think I could be strong). But maybe it’s about me. It’s like your dad stands over you and says “I trust you completely, but that boy! I don’t trust him at all. No! you can’t go out and play with him!” hahahaha

    Maybe you’re on the right path, and if he’s speaking to you…then you got a clear conduit of communication. That’s great!

    And I am confident we could behave if we see each other. But if became a regular thing, then on a weak day, or on a day where we need consolation and a hug…the hug would feel so GOOOOOOD! And I still can feel the energy and heat between us. The anticipation. I can still feel you. And it still makes me want you.

    So maybe it is me, and not you.

    And before I close this letter, know that I do adore your heart and inner-person. It’s not all about your body! (yummy). But…to be real…

    Nice to hear from you…

    6 Responses to Maybe it’s Me

    1. Hugs
      September 25, 2010 at 10:33 am

      i think i lived this in a dream. Did you have the same dream as me?

    2. coffee-mate
      September 27, 2010 at 5:45 am

      Have you read this FH?

    3. FH
      September 27, 2010 at 10:44 am

      Why yes I have…several times. I can only comment from my phone. It still doesn’t work from my computer. Pleading the 5th for now…;)

    4. coffee-mate
      September 27, 2010 at 11:43 am

      good idea to plead the 5th. u make me laugh! good thing you have a phone…keep it silent..on vibrate 😉

    5. RH
      September 21, 2011 at 7:23 pm

      God I miss you! Just going through old posts:(

    6. ANEWDAY
      September 21, 2011 at 8:38 pm

      Goodness! This is hot stuff! 😉

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