The fact that I love you is crazy. For a few reasons, We are only 15, I don’t know how you feel, and oh…. You love HER.
I know that she’s your girlfriend and I’m not but almost every thought I have is about you. You’re so rude and hurtful around her, but when it’s just you and me… You smile and make jokes, pull me in for hugs. The reason I try not to hug you is because it hurts. It feels so right, but I know it isn’t.
Today, we were making jokes, and you said something mean. I got sad and you tried to hug me. I ignored it at first, trying to not feel that way again.. But when I gave in, you kissed me on the top of the head. It seems so much like something that you wouldn’t do, that I ignored it, and now I am questioning whether it even happened or not. I can’t be going crazy, so what WAS that?
What am I supposed to do? Just forget about it? That is easier said than done, I can tell you that for a fact. Every day, you’re breaking my heart and you don’t even know it. I wish I wasn’t so stupid, and could just accept that its teenage puppy love… but I can’t.