I just wanted to let you know it hurts.
It hurts knowing I gave you everything I had left. It hurts knowing even though you said you loved me, you don’t. Because if you did you wouldn’t have treated me the way you have. I didn’t want to lose it to a guy I cared about originally, because I knew in the end we’d both be hurt. But I took that chance with you, because I thought you’d be different. But you weren’t. And it kills me that I was that stupid. You can sit there and say I should have waited till marriage but I’ll probably get screwed over when I marry, too.
So yes, I hurt. And I can’t bring myself to tell you that I still care and that I want to feel special. I did lose my virginity to you after all.