To my friend, my confidant, my love,
I met you the first time a long time ago.
We spent a week together on that mission trip, to that place where we helped orphans. There was something about you that changed me. Your laugh, your smile, the way you prodded me when I teased you.
Then we parted ways for a long time. Until by happen chance you entered my life again. Surprisingly, another mission trip to another part of the world. Only this time, I was with someone else, but you were still there. You never changed; your smile, the way your eyes squish when you laugh.
And then we broke up and you were there. You listened and consoled my broken heart. But by then my heart had become cold, to the lost love of my relationship past. You fell in love with me, and I with you. But, it could never work because i was not the boy you fell in love with anymore. My cold heart changed me.
And in the end, after all the moments we would share together, I would only end up breaking your heart throwing excuses after excuses as to why we could not be together. And again, I apologize for my immaturity. I will always love you. Maybe in the future, if we meet again, I can properly court you and be the man you thought I was.
Your insecure friend, confidant, and selfish love.