It is almost four AM
and i woke up screaming scared from some nightmare or another,
I reach for the phone. Just to hear you say I’ll be okay, That no monster or shadow or bad guy would mess with me as long as HE was alive.
But here’s the thing, you ARE alive, and the monsters are still coming for me…
I can’t believe how much im missing you.
And your smile that goes up into those melted chocolate eyes.
And your arms holding me, strong but gentle and safe.
I could melt in those arms, and those eyes.
But the only trick now, is that I’m no longer allowed to.
You don’t have time for a stupid girl with her heart on the line.
My head is saying calmly, rationally, Casey… It makes sense, he’s really busy, dont blame him for this.
But I CAN’T
Because my heart is ripping itself to pieces screaming, wondering. Why, why am I not worth making time for?
I knew, all along I knew I’d never deserve something so good.
But I guess I deserve the hurt for trying.