It’s been a year since I have felt alive. I have been driving around all morning trying to pass time so I can stop thinking about how happy I was a year ago. 365 days and 10 hours ago you destroyed me. 365 days and 11 hours ago I was just about the happiest girl in the world. I miss you every minute of every day that you’re not here.
I know you miss me too, baby, everyone tells me. I hate you for making unforgivable mistakes which have resulted in our permanent separation. I hate you for not running after me. I hate you for not calling me everyday for the last year trying to get back with me. I hate that I honestly think you’re my soul mate. I hate you for hitting me. I hate you for destroying us.
But most of all I hate that I still love you.