Isn’t it amazing when you see things from a different angle how different they are.
Less than 2 months ago, I was head over heels in love with you. Now, I see how you act, what you say on your facebook pages, just generally how you conduct yourself = pathetic. I know you and I will NEVER be together again and whilst we have to bump into each other with work occasionally, I’m starting to realise how much of a spirit/energy/soul draining person you are.
You aren’t a bad person, no, not at all, you are just seriously mixed up. I tried to help you. I was always there for you and you constantly thanked me for being me and being there for you. But then you just pushed me away.
You have SO many issues going on in your head and your behaviour is nothing more than a mask that you wear to hide behind. I know you miss me because you act weird and uncomfortable around me. You want to know what is going on in my life so that’s why you are happy if I keep in touch with your kids. You regret breaking up with me and you know deep down, that you really fucked it up this time. There won’t be another time. I am moving on. I look fantastic, I feel fantastic and yes, I’m starting to date. I know that you pretend to not care and maybe you don’t, but somehow i don’t believe that. You do/say things that you know will hurt me so that you might get some reaction.
The truth is, it does hurt me, but now, each day, it’s starting to have less an effect on me.
I have the wonderful support of close friends and family and they have helped me through. I will never know how to repay them for hearing me endlessly bleating on about how much i love and miss you. Thankfully, I’m getting over that now.
Now, I have removed my rose coloured glasses. I actually pity you, but at the same time, know that only when you face up to your issues can you do something about them. In the meantime, you will stick your head in the sand, fuck whoever you want, date whoever you want because before long you will have another melt down and I won’t be there for you and you will dump them (or they will dump you) and your biggest fear will come to fruition.. you will become a sad and lonely man.
Simon.. I wish you good luck. It has been a memorable time with you but it’s now time to just let you go…for the first time in 2 months, I am really ready to say that and completely mean it. You will be deleted from my msn, my facebook, everything because I personally don’t care to know what you are doing anymore.
I feel better now that I have been able to offload that weight. I thank god for this forum.