• Confused

    by  • September 21, 2010 • Confusion, Friends, Lost Love • 0 Comments

    Dear Sam,

    You confuse me.

    We were awesome friends in middle school. We both had bad times. We both had good times. I was always there for you, through everything. I became your best friend after all of yours left you, alone. I sat with you on the phone for hours on end. You had me so completely wrapped around your finger, it’s kind of ridiculous.

    At that moment in time, I would have considered you a BEST friend, but in all honesty, that isn’t what it was. I had no idea who I was. I’m almost positive you weren’t over your old friends. We kind of just found each other and it was sort of a comforting kind of thing. I didn’t like my friends, and you had none.

    We spent our entire Summer together, everyday. I can’t say I didn’t enjoy all of our times together but I realize now what I had been missing all along, and that’s to know what it feels like to have a true friend. I mean, sure, we talked about a lot, and you were fairly open minded, but was it just because you were bored? That’s one thing I noticed about our friendship. I felt that I bored you. I still think I do.

    You’re the kind of person that needs to have action all of time, where as I’m more of a calm person. If it’s one thing I want you to realize though, it’s that YOU ended our friendship. YOU left me. YOU did EXACTLY what your horrible friends had done to you just a year before. Not only did you leave me completely friendless, but you didn’t care…

    You could have at least given me a warning, or something. You put me through hell until I met my best friend. Although I’m over it, and I forgive you, I still DO NOT understand why you still try to contact me. I know that you are probably unhappy with your friends now(I mean, I hear you complain about them 24/7) but why do you have to call ME!? I’m sorry but we will never be best friends again. I will always be here for you no matter what because that’s who I am, but you need to realize that we are/were not meant to be best friends, whatsoever. You can call me when you need to, but please don’t impose.

    I’m happy; I know who I am.

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