You. You know how to make me laugh when I’m upset.
You’re cute, you’re smart, and you’re also the biggest source of confusion in my life. I know I push you away because I’m afraid of getting hurt again. I’ve told myself a thousand times not to be so trusting, yet I still found myself caught up in you.
I’m sorry that we havn’t seen each other in a while. I’m hoping that by distancing myself from you that I will eventually stop thinking about you everyday and what could have been. We talk still, because for some reason I can’t cut myself off from you entirely.
You do things that make me fall back in… love? with you and I hate you for it. No, love is too strong of a word.
You also do things that make me think you’re a jackass. For example, why do you have to be such a jerk when you’re around your friends? I tried to tell you how I felt, why I push you away, tried to open up to you. My words fall on deaf ears because you don’t listen. Either because you refuse to hear it, or just because you don’t care.
What happened between us may have been a fluke, but either way, I know that the time we spent together was one of the happiest times in my life. I know that I shouldn’t try and forget what happened since they were happy times. But at the same time, I want to forget because it hurts so much to think about.
I hope we can still be friends.