We met at the most random time in my favourite place in town. I didn’t think much of the first time I saw you, or when TJ first introduced us. I was pretty shy and didn’t say much to you even though I wanted to, I was even too shy to look at you! I remember how everyday after we first met, I looked for you every time I biked past the skatepark. I wondered where you were when you weren’t there, because you always seemed to be there, skating with Kev.
When I saw you there I’d make an excuse to stop there for a bit and watch you, and maybe say hi.
I smile every time I think of the first day we actually chilled. I was at the skate with my guy friends and you were there too. I didn’t really think you were interested in me at all, but boy was I into you! We talked a little more that day, I really wish we could relive it. I took my shoes off for a bit and you stole them and tied them together, and “fixed” my torn lace. After we got tired of skating we all went back to your apartment and ate pizza and watched a movie. It was probably one of the best days of my summer, and hopefully it was yours too. You told me a while ago that you remember that day as well.
We were only together 6 weeks, but in that time you made me so happy. I loved how we’d hang out and do basically nothing, just sit at the park on the swings and smile at each other. I love everything about you, your hair, your smile, your laugh. I think about you everyday.
I miss you so much.
I miss napping with you in your apartment on hot afternoons. I miss going for long walks and talking about random things. I miss how we’d talk about what we’d do after I came back from vacation and you moved back. But that didn’t happen. I miss your kisses and hugs. Fuck I miss you! I even miss all the little kids teasing me about you when we weren’t near each other.
I really wish you didn’t have to move back to NL, and that you didn’t wimp out on our long distance relationship so soon… We could have done fine. I felt the same way as you, but I didn’t EVER think of breaking up just because you were across the country. I know it’s was hard since you worked all the time, and you were 3.5hrs ahead of me. I didn’t have a problem that you wanted to hang out with your friends, and that you didn’t text me back every single time. It sucked that your internet was slow and didn’t connect on the days we wanted to skype, but still that shouldn’t have been a reason for you to leave.
Hopefully you still like me as much as I like you, and I hope that you’ll text me and we can continue our friendship. Honestly you are the nicest guy I know, and hopefully (sooner rather than later) we can continue the relationship we had. But I’m sort of doubting your commitment.