did you ever love me?
i’m not sure you did, though you said it first.
you also stopped loving me first. you broke my heart and now i’m wondering if you ever loved me. i used to think you did but then i came across a recent email to your ex. in the email you said you still love her. did you always love her? even with me? did you call her babygirl too? did you take her for cheesy fries when she was sad? was i just a place holder until she came back? just a person to pass the time with? i hope not.
i look back on our memories together and now there’s this horrible feeling that it was all fake. i believe you cared about me but i dont know if you loved me. i hope i wasn’t just convenient. i hope you didnt keep me around to make yourself feel better and to get through the time until she came back to you. i could handle you falling out of love with me. it would hurt but i would heal.
i’m not sure how i will handle this if it is true. was our love real or just convenient? i don’t know if i have the courage to ask you that yet but hopefully someday soon i will.