So I guess we’re done. I guess it never even started.
It was probably just me doing all of the thinking. Every day of training, you were my motivation. Every day of waiting, you were my reward. Did you know I have a special LED pattern on my phone when you text? Did you know that my heart jumps a little whenever I see it? Most of the time it’s just a little “hey” but it still gives me hope.
All I wanted was a chance, and I guess I blew the one I had. Something tells me that you would have been different, but I really can’t think why. I think I’ll see you two more times before I get my deployment dates, and I’m thinking about skipping on them. The last thing I need before I leave is to be reminded that I had a shot with you, but blew it.