• What I wish…

    by  • September 17, 2010 • Gratitude, Hope, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 6 Comments

    I wish that I could live in two different worlds.
    The one that I live in and the other one I could live in with you.
    Not that I know what it would exactly be like but I would loved to have had the chance to find out.
    Would I be molded into a different person than I am now?
    Would I be so much more because of your edifying ways?
    To be around a person who would lift me up instead of purposely putting me down.
    Could I have escaped all those years of not wanting to exist?
    Not seeing why this life is important at all?
    I’m finally feeling the love that I deserve and even though it is not of this earth…at least I feel it.
    Things are shifting and changing for the better and I am starting to radiate happiness from within.
    I’m glad that I held on…for I almost gave up.
    I saw no other answer for awhile.
    It was so painful to exist.
    Now I look forward to existing and to what life has in store for me.
    Thanks for showing me the way…
    I wish I could share my new found love of life with you.
    I wish I could snuggle and watch a movie with you.
    I wish I could experience laughter and sorrow with you.
    I wish I could have two lives so I could be with you and it would be alright 🙁

    6 Responses to What I wish…

    1. J
      September 17, 2010 at 2:55 pm

      i used to feel like that, then I decided I had to change my life, and picked the other world aand couldnt be happier!

    2. Hugs
      September 20, 2010 at 3:36 am

      Good morning FH, this reminds me of you. Are you here today?

    3. FlutteringHeart
      September 20, 2010 at 10:47 am

      I wonder who wrote this? I can relate to this in a very real way;)

    4. hugs
      September 20, 2010 at 11:57 am

      hmmmmmmmmmmmm…living two lives is somehow romantic, but it tears at the soul. To be whole…in everything is a nirvana. to have peace in the center of your being. To know that your true motivations are clear and understood, and lived, and there’s a clean path forward. No lies. No deceit. No crap. No that’s a good thing. I think the devision in thinking comes from a divided heart. This is really painful.

    5. Yvaine
      September 20, 2010 at 1:10 pm

      Yes it is very confusing. Maybe just visiting another life once in a great while would be good:)

    6. BlindersOn
      September 20, 2010 at 1:31 pm

      wow…sounds like friends with benefits. :O
      mind in the gutter….

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