• How very different forms happiness can take

    by  • September 17, 2010 • Gratitude, Lost Love, Love - Pure and Simple, Positive Vibes • 1 Comment

    How very different forms happiness can take
    I remember being happy when you held my hand on a roller-coaster
    I remember being happy when you kissed my lips in an empty theater
    I remember being happy the morning you came over for an egg themed cooking contest
    I remember being happy the afternoon you held my body in front of the mirror and praised it
    I remember being happy the evening you pulled flowers from behind your back to my surprise and smile
    I remember being happy the night I awoke in an unfamiliar place and then realized I was in your arms
    Then things changed
    And I remember not being very happy
    I remember being sad
    I remember lying on the bathroom floor crying I remember feeling lost
    I remember taking walks where I didn’t end up anywhere
    I remember not knowing how to be happy For I had lost you
    Then things changed
    I learned about being happy without you I remember the risk I took in exploring possibilities I remember the call that said I got the job
    I remember the rush when I realized I’d be traveling thousands of miles
    I remember the moment I booked my plane ticket I remember the conversation when I tried to brag to you that I was going
    I remember that conversation you tried to brag about her
    I remember us both seeming happy that the other was happy
    I remember not feeling very happy then I remember the day the plane landed
    I remember the nervousness and excitement of being in a faraway land I remember learning about the place and the people in it
    I remember going to work
    I remember learning that I can depend on myself
    I remember realizing that I can make friends whom I may not have much in common with
    I remember the freedom I felt
    I remember the love I developed for these friends and adopted family That is when I remember being happy again
    I remember being happy when a coworker felt comfortable enough to tease me
    I remember being happy on Saturday mornings when I went garage sale hunting
    I remember being happy frolicking in a creek with new friends
    I remember being happy when I photographed a friend tattooing her own foot
    I remember being happy as a new friend taught me how to cook
    I remember being happy when my aunt and mom came to inspect my new life
    I remember being happy when they said they couldn’t believe how lucky I was
    I remember being happy that first time
    I realized that I didn’t need you
    I remember being happy when I realized that I no longer missed you
    I remember being happy as I left that faraway land that people cried as I left
    I remember being happy when you said you wanted to see me again
    I remember being happy that when I saw you, I no longer wanted you back
    Finally, I remember being happy that I met you, loved you, and had my heart broken by you
    Because if that hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t have realized how very different forms happiness can take

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    One Response to How very different forms happiness can take

    1. onethirtysixam
      September 18, 2010 at 5:55 pm

      This is awesome.




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