• Dear My Love

    by  • September 17, 2010 • Depression, Grief, Lost Love, Yearning for You • 5 Comments

    I’m not doing so well. I started drinking and cutting again. I don’t know why. I just did.

    I feel as if everything is falling apart. It feels as if I’m losing my close friends. I feel so alone and unwanted. I wish I could see you and talk to you again. But you’re gone.

    I have been thinking of suicide again. I always told people I never think about it. But the fact of the matter is, I always have. Never stopped. It feels as if there’s nothing to save me. No medicine, no amount of therapy will change me.

    And every time I think of how I’ll never see you again, I get sad. I feel like I’ve lost the most important person to me. How you always listened to me and helped me. But I feel as if I’m falling back to who I was before.

    I wish you were here. There’s no one else in the world that I trust as much as you. I lie to everyone else, but not you, never you. I have never lied to you.

    I just wish I could see you again. Get a hug from you. Some re-assuring words from you.

    If I got that, I feel as if I’d be OK for a little while longer.

    5 Responses to Dear My Love

    1. C
      September 17, 2010 at 6:05 pm

      i read this and started crying. this is exactly what i am going through too. it doesnt feel like it will ever get better. i hope it does soon.

    2. HS
      September 17, 2010 at 6:45 pm

      I know how you feel C. Same with me. The man I’ve loved most in this world is gone now and he got me through a lot. We were never married, but we always seemed like it, and now he’s gone.

    3. C
      September 17, 2010 at 7:01 pm

      the guy im talking about helped me through so much. my previous boyfriend had been abusive and he helped me get over it and move on. now that hes gone im back where i was before. i dont feel like i can trust anyone after this.

    4. Gwenith
      September 17, 2010 at 7:11 pm

      This post hurts my heart to read. I have been very low like this over lost love. Time heals much, and I’ve realized I’m here on earth to evolve and grow and expand my soul to a higher and brighter vibration. We live in infinity- if you can somehow connect with that inner hope lost inside- it will spark a crack of light back on…
      sending you light and love dear soul.
      There is so much better to come your way.

    5. B
      September 18, 2010 at 4:39 am

      you will hear this over and over but time really does heal wounds. my husband left me 17 months ago for a girl 5 years younger. i’m 25. we bore a son. that time, i lost my job and got evicted from my apartment. i was in the place where i don’t think i could go on any longer.

      here i am, 17 months later. i find myself singing songs again and laughing at silly stuff. there is life after a heartbreak. you just have to live one day at a time and hope for better things to come.

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