I think about this more than I should, but at least I don’t bring it up as much as I could. I’m afraid of losing you… every single day.
The catch, however, is that I’m not afraid of losing you because of infidelity, or because you might become unhappy and not want to be here anymore. I trust that you are faithful and that you are being honest when you say aloud how happy you are, and I pray that you continue to be happy here. I know in my heart and soul that I would NEVER do anything to hurt you, and only want you to be happy… us to be happy, and so I am not fearful of causing you to want to leave. I think what it boils down to is this:
I Love you, and I can truly say that never before have I loved anyone with as much passion and adoration. I Love you so much that sometimes I get these horrible headaches. And then I think about “What if she leaves me?” How much would that hurt? And the answer is obvious.
So I’ve been thinking that if I could figure out some way to not love you, to not be so overjoyed when looking into your eyes, that maybe I would be able to save myself from the pain and grief I fear so much, and ultimately have the strength to leave you.
This is going to be a bad headache, I can tell.
I Love you, and I want you and me, forever.