Do you know why I love you?
Why more than anything, I refuse to stop having feelings for you after so long?
Could you sit there and take a stab at it and try to be right? I know I’ve told you why, countless times… and yes you know, in general, why I feel the way I feel about you. But do you really listen? Do you really understand? Or want to understand?
There are times where I loathe your existence… times that I regret every tear that I’ve cried, every feeling in the pit of my stomach that made me want to throw up and cry or do both at the same time, where I just want you to tell me that it’s not worth it anymore, that you don’t want me, that it’s over. For good. I wished for so long that you would tell me that, so I wouldn’t try anymore.
I think about those times now and I shake my head because in reality, I love because of you. I smile because of you. My heart flutters because of you. I’ve tried to think of other guys making me feel the way you do, and I can’t. It doesn’t make any sense to me. There is no one else.
I love you because we are who we are together and apart.
We don’t change each other, we make each other better. I don’t have to pretend I’m anything else than myself. I love you because our personalities compliment each other perfectly. We balance each other out like a scale. I love you because I don’t keep coming back to you out of comfort, but because I want you. I love you because I never have to ask myself what I want out of relationship, I get everything I need. I love you because you are my other half, and you are everything I’ve ever wanted. I love you because you know everything about me, I know everything about you, and we are still as crazy about each other as we were junior year of high school. I love you because I can imagine waking up every morning and seeing you smile at me, and the thought of that makes me happy. I love you because we’re making our way through this time apart together, and we’re doing it well. I love you because I know we’ll make it in the end… I have this really amazing feeling. I love you because I know you’ll sit here and read this and feel the exact same way. And finally I love you because I just do, because I met you… and you were it.
And that’s all there is to it.