Your lack of experience in relationships makes me nervous.
I’m your first real…well, anything.
I don’t want you to think the way I am is how women are always going to be. I get sad and don’t want to get out of bed and do things that make you worry. I promise, sweetheart, that this isn’t always how it’s going to be. You deserve someone incredibly special, a person that has better control of her emotions and doesn’t feel bad about herself when you fall asleep when she’s over. As much as I want to be that girl, I can’t.
Not all things are bad, though. You know how to make me laugh and you listen to my stories and you tell me that you’ll support me, even if I go to India without you. I want to thank you for that. You’ve shown me what a good relationship can be. Even though this is your first, you somehow just know things.
I want to keep you in my life. You’ve taught me so much, and I feel like you still have so many things to show me about the world. But even if things don’t work out for us, just know that I’ll always remember you.
I love you.