I don’t even know why I’ve been crying so much.
Maybe everything is just perfectly fine and I’m causing problems out of nowhere. I don’t know if I should talk to you about this or not. I don’t because I’m worried that there is a reason I’ve been crying. That there is a problem. I don’t know if I could handle that. You are my everything. You are my life and I know that you’ve been so busy and stressed and everything, but I miss you regardless.
Every minute, every second I’m not with you, I miss you. I miss you being happy around me. I miss you being so infatuated with me you couldn’t stop telling me you loved me. I miss being called pretty every day. I miss feeling so secure in the fact that you’re the love of my life and you want to be with me. But I mostly miss being told that you love me all the time. And I miss believing it.
I honestly don’t know what I would do without you. I couldn’t imagine if something went wrong. I just need you and I need things to get better. I need you to help me through this. I want you to realize that I’m not okay when I tell you I’m fine, because I don’t want to say any of this to you, in fear of knowing for a fact that there’s a problem.
I want you to know, but I don’t want to tell you.