• I love you

    by  • September 15, 2010 • Heartbreak, Letting Go, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    Jeanne,

    Sweetheart, it’s been three days since you decided to leave me.

    Honey, you weren’t just my girlfriend, you were my best friend.

    As I go throughout my day, I wonder to myself, where have you gone? Why are you no longer a part of my life? Why did you leave me? I didn’t even get to say goodbye.

    I feel like a puppy who has just lost his best friend, clawing at the dirt where his best friend is buried, knowing she is down there but won’t respond.

    Not only were you my girlfriend and best friend, but you were in all my dreams. I dreamt of spending my life with you and sharing our love through children. I wanted that brick house in the mountains in Virginia. When you decided to leave, you took with you my dreams and my heart. I haven’t felt the same since you left. I feel empty and void. I feel that I’ve lost much of my purpose to live and now struggle to find new purpose. I will always cherish our trip to Niagara Falls and the time I spent with you in Virginia. So many wonderful memories.

    But most of all, I will remember the warmth and comfort I felt around you. I will remember watching you next to me as you slept so peacefully. I will remember the feeling of your head on my chest with my arms around you, knowing that you were mine and I was yours. Honey, even though I doubted because of the distance, I now know that I loved you the entire time. I would have given anything for you, and now, I must do my last act of my love for you and honor your wishes to leave.

    Maybe someday our paths will again cross, maybe someday we will again be together, but for now, I must honor you and love you through letting you find your own path. I love you enough to let you go free and I hope that you will grow your wings and fly Sweetheart. I will be silently watching you from a distance, marveling at every step you make on your path. I will always be proud of you my Love.

    I miss you, and I love you.

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