• You said.

    by  • September 14, 2010 • Frustration, Grief, Lost Love, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 1 Comment

    You said you wanted me and never wanted to leave.

    What happened? You said you loved me and never wanted to ever let me go. What happened to those feelings? I love you still, so much. I try to act happy, not really sure if it’s for myself or to make you believe I’m okay without you, but truthfully I’m really not.

    I wish you wouldn’t have left. Just left me without giving me any answers. You never give me answers to any of my questions. It’s like you don’t want me to get over you, like you want me to wait for you till you are ready to move on.

    We both hurt each other, broke each other’s trust.

    I wish we never would have. I wish I could go back and fix it all and I know I never will.

    I know you will probably never even read this.

    Never even realize how much I care about you. You were amazing for me, yet so terribly bad for me at the same time.

    Maybe eventually we will be together again, and I know it’s silly to think that way. Thinking I will ever have you as mine again. When I know it will never happen.

    I hope you find happiness and whatever else you are looking for. I really do.

    Please never forget me love.

    One Response to You said.

    1. I cry at night too
      September 14, 2010 at 10:28 pm

      I’m giving advice solely based on my own experiences, but I’d make contact with the one who has the good part of you. I say this, because I’m on the other side of this situation..I have his better half in my heart, patiently waiting for him to come back and retrieve it. It’s been very painful and the agony of it all has torn me up emotionally. It’s hard waiting for something that may never be, but it’s even harder giving up on something you’ve always wanted. People say it should get easier as time passes by, and in some respects this is very true, it has gotten a little easier. But by easier I mean, I don’t cry all day-every day anymore, just at night when I’m alone and thinking about him. I’ve finally been able to turn on the radio again because ‘our’ songs are constantly playing and rather than muting them, I’m able to listen along with tears in my eyes, and smile because of the warm memories we’ve attached to those songs. But the pain of us giving up hasn’t gotten easier, nor has the concept of moving on and finding someone else appeal to me. So, why not call that person who has your heart?! You never know if they are on the other side waiting for you to make that move..

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