• I Can’t Say That You’ll Miss Me, But I Wish That You Would

    by  • September 14, 2010 • Lost Love, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Yearning for You • 1 Comment

    I have laid awake here for hours. Jet lag is a bitch.

    For some reason I can only think of you, and how you are probably not thinking of me. The most depressing thing is that you will never know this. You will never so much as receive a hint of how sorely I am missing you.

    I have thought many times about just calling. I almost have a couple times when I have had too many drinks to count.

    I haven’t cared for anyone since you, you know. Not at all really. I have tried. I have forced myself to make an effort to feel emotion for another woman.

    I truly am dead inside.

    I have been on autopilot since you left. Since you stopped calling. Since you stopped sending texts of only a _ and a 3. You took the part of me that loved with you. Tell him I say hi if you two still talk. Tell him that I miss him terribly but that I would much rather he stay with you than to return empty handed. I hope to see him again at some point in this life. I hope to see you both truthfully.

    Until then I am lessened, I am lost, I am still completely and utterly living in your letters.

    One Response to I Can’t Say That You’ll Miss Me, But I Wish That You Would

    1. I cry at night too
      September 14, 2010 at 10:26 pm

      I’m giving advice solely based on my own experiences, but I’d make contact with the one who has the good part of you. I say this, because I’m on the other side of this situation..I have his better half in my heart, patiently waiting for him to come back and retrieve it. It’s been very painful and the agony of it all has torn me up emotionally. It’s hard waiting for something that may never be, but it’s even harder giving up on something you’ve always wanted. People say it should get easier as time passes by, and in some respects this is very true, it has gotten a little easier. But by easier I mean, I don’t cry all day-every day anymore, just at night when I’m alone and thinking about him. I’ve finally been able to turn on the radio again because ‘our’ songs are constantly playing and rather than muting them, I’m able to listen along with tears in my eyes, and smile because of the warm memories we’ve attached to those songs. But the pain of us giving up hasn’t gotten easier, nor has the concept of moving on and finding someone else appeal to me. So, why not call that person who has your heart?! You never know if they are on the other side waiting for you to make that move..

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