I used to think you were my soul sister, now I realize you are just another puppet like the rest of them.
I feel better living a true life now, than I ever did being LDS. I am never in denial like you are. I do miss things about it, but I would rather have this life, this authentic real life than any fake life I had before. I gave so much to the church, my life, my faith, my youth, and for what? I would not trade those experiences for anything but I wish my life would have been different. And my Mom has chosen the church over her family, her children, she thinks God will be ok with that, but I feel differently.
Everyone I ever really loved has abandoned me because of a freaking church. They don’t even give me a chance. It’s either you are in the church or you are OUT.
All I can say is I feel closer to God than I ever did and he answers my prayers pretty quickly and I feel his love more profoundly than ever. I never had that in the church. And I strived for it every day!